This week started out on a hopeful note: I got a call from the temp agency telling me I’d been selected for a new position at a distribution plant in town. I had to go in and update my paperwork and take a drug test, but I had a job again! That was great.
Less great: the actual job. I made it through orientation all right, but then we (there were three of us temps starting that day) were thrown into the work. We were put in order consolidation, where the orders are put together for the packers. We were given some very basic training that I don’t feel adequately covered everything? But I’m one to talk. It didn’t help that there were lulls between the pickers arriving with the product to consolidate, and if there is anyone worse at looking busy, I would love to meet them, because I am terrible at it.
So that, coupled with the fact that I still wasn’t really sure what I was supposed to be doing, meant that I spent the first half of my shift having a mini panic attack. I probably should have taken one of my anxiety meds, which I had brought for the express purpose of staving off a panic attack, but it’s surprisingly hard to think about such things when you’re panicking. I still didn’t do all that great with the second half of the shift, either.
It was no surprise, therefore, when I got home and checked my phone to see that I had a message from the temp agency. Telling me that the company did not want me back the next day. I had a feeling I hadn’t done well generally, and it stung a little, but it wasn’t surprising. I’m not very quick on the uptake. I’m shy and sometimes afraid to ask questions. And I’m prone to panicking when I don’t know what I’m doing. Those things do not combine well with a fast-paced work environment.
So yes, that was an adventure. Not a great one, but it happened. I’m back on the list of available people at the temp agency, and hopefully something that’s more my speed will come up. I’m beginning to doubt it, but I live in hope, I guess.
A day late, but hopefully not a dollar short, here are my goals for the coming month:
- Keep up with 3 soda days/week.
- Exercise. Go walking at the park or SOMETHING.
- Writing: at least 2k on various projects.
- Reading: finish reading Protector of the Small. Maybe read more if there’s time left in the month.
- Movies: watch 5 movies, new or old.
- Get out of the house for an hour or two at least every other day.
- Baking: bake cookies at least once. Maybe bake bread?
- Fiber arts: get the baby blanket at least 2ft long. Spin the rest of the white fiber.
- Video games: maybe start playing Trio of Towns again. Maybe.
- Blogging: post of blog at least once per week.
- Dreamwidth: keep updating. Keep up with tron_comm and gauge interest in an event or events for TRON’s anniversary in July.
- Bullet journal: seriously keep up with it. Stop leaving blank days and catching up after the fact.
I seem to be aiming ever lower with each passing month, but I’m kind of resigned to it at this point? I am not a great accomplisher of Things. I should just aim high enough that I can make it and maybe feel good about myself in the process. I want to stop feeling like a failure every month.
So, to refresh, these are my April goals:
- I fell off the wagon with 3 sodas/week. Get back on it.
- Exercise 2x/week. Just do it.
- Eat better food. Somehow.
- Writing: write 1000 words for Camp NaNoWriMo.
- Reading: read the Protector of the Small quartet. Plus at least 2 other books.
- Movies: watch at least 10, 5 new to me.
- TV: catch up and keep up with Doctor Who. Ditto Steven Universe.
- Video games: get married, get all towns to S in 3oT. Try to get off the plateau in BotW.
- Baking: make and decorate cupcakes for Liara’s birthday. Maybe bake cookies while visiting Lia.
- Knitting: work on the baby blanket for Evelyn.
- Blog: post once or twice per week.
- Set up payments on my student loans.
- Have fun on my trip to visit Lia!
And this is how I did on them:
- WROTE 7K SUCKAS
- Well I read half the Protector of the Small quartet. Does that count?
- I watched three movies I’d seen before. Whoops.
- Well I did not catch up on Doctor Who, but I started watching the new series anyway. BILL POTTS = LOVE
- I suddenly stopped playing video games this month. What even.
- HIT!! I made delightful cupcakes for my niece’s birthday party AND baked cookies with my friend while I was visiting her.
So that’s how my April went. I’ll try and have my May goals up asap, and will hopefully update you on my general life situation soon.